20 Months

For being such a serious baby Ryker sure has decided he is the funniest kid ever (which he is). He likes to make funny faces and then laugh. He loves his blanket and is rarely without it. He like to karate chop drawers to close them... HI-YA! He also likes to pretend his arm is a gun and shoot people. He loves to play outside. Whenever we go to my moms he has to have a chocolate milk and cereal. He loves to watch Toy Story in his chair, he watches it while I make dinner or while I am cleaning the house.

26 Weeks

26 weeks pregnant with twins and I feel like I am 38 weeks pregnant. People need to realize unless you are telling a pregnant girl how great she looks or how little she is, you shouldn't say anything. I can't tell you how many time people say your only that far along you look twice that. Not something you want to hear when you already feel huge. I understand that pregnancy is a blessing and should never be taken for granted. However, this pregnancy has been killer, on my body and on me. I feel like every symptom you can have while pregnant I get. My poor legs are about to give out on me, gaining so much weight in such a fast time has been hard on them. Baby B likes to hang out up in my lungs which makes it hard to breath, as if I don't feel big enough as it is, I now get winded going up stairs. I feel like I have no control over my body, which can be frustrating. I love feeling the babies move and knowing that I am helping them grow by providing a safe place for them. I hope that I am strong enough to carry them until they are a healthy and strong. I have so much respect for any mom, moms of multiples are a amazing!

Our new car, it has captain seats and a bench in the back. Hopefully this car will last us a little bit longer then our last car.

Then Brad.... He is slowly beginning to accept the fact that we are having twins. He is such a good husband. He has to hear me complain daily about something else that is wrong with me. He has been working hard to find a job that can support our family so that I can stay home with the kids. What a great guy!

A Leap of Faith

For the past 6 months Brad and I have been debating what we were going to do about me working next year. At first it was an easy choice, of coarse I won't work, how could I work with 3 children under the age of 2? Well as the months wore on I became more hesitant to quit, it is kind of a final thing to quit your teaching job. I love where I work and have been very spoiled my working there. I also love the fact that I am needed, yes teaching is tough and draining but it is also very rewarding. I have had a great class this year which made a huge difference. Well as the school year comes to a close I knew I needed to let my principal know my decision. There were so many "ifs" to discuss and the more I thought about it the more I worried I would need to stay working. For finical reasons, for benefits and for my own selfish sanity. Well on Monday night after much talking and praying Brad and I decided it would be best for me to stay home. So we are taking a leap of faith and putting our trust in the Lord, that he will help provide a way for us to make this work. It is a relief to have the decision made and final, but still sad. I know that everything will work out and that we made the right choice. I look forward to being able to stay home and raise my babies!

Mother's Day

I know I am late starting this but it has been busy at our house. 1st of all I have so many great examples as to what makes a great mom. My sisters are wonderful examples on how to raise families, I am always amazed at the patients they show towards their children. I love my sisters so much (and brothers too), I am happy I am the youngest so that I can learn from what they do for their families!
2nd I have wonderful friends that are mothers or are going to be mothers some day that are also great examples. My friend Amy has some children that are a little older and I love and hope I have the same relationship with my kids that she has with hers. I also have many friends that have children around Rykers age, I love talking to them and seeing what they do to help teach their little ones. Then I have friends that don't have kids yet but I know they will be great mothers by the way they are willing to help me with Ryker and my future kids.
3rd I have a wonderful mother who is the best example as to what a mom should be. I was talking with my friend Lindsay about how much we love and depend on our moms. This pregnancy has been a tough one on me. My mom is always willing to help in any way she can. She goes to get Ryker for me so that I can rest. She is always checking on me to make sure that I am doing and feeling ok. Lindsay and I were talking about how scary it is to become a mom because once you are a mom you will always be a mom. Which is totally true, I am now 25 and still depend a lot on my mom. She is my best friend and I am so grateful I have her in my life to help me and to be a great example.
To all moms great job and keep up the good work, you are all so wonderful!